Huge, gigantic, enormous wall... Tuesday, August 22, 2006 |
Mood: Frustrated but hopeful
What I'm Listening To Right Now: Emeril on Food Network
Well, obviously I haven't posted in a while and that has mainly been out of frustration. I've hit a wall with my writing that I don't understand. I don't think it's writer's block since I already know what's going to happen in my story. Unless Writer's Block is defined a different way. Something like "Cannot find a creative bone in body, thus no writing." Then, I might have Writer's Block.
I just haven't been able to force myself to sit down and write. I've talked to a few people who think it's because I'm so near that end of my book that subconsciously, I've stopped myself from writing because I'm scared of what could happen after that; good or bad. And they may be right, but it still makes me mad!
I want to finish this book so bad I can't see straight, and yet here I am blogging; not writing.
I've taken some steps recently to try to get my head back in the story though. Things like sitting my pile of notebooks on my lap and staring at them. Hoping that just seeing the notes that I've made over the last nine months will spur some creativity. Yesterday was the first time in almost three weeks where I got a rumbling of creativity by looking at my notes. I even made a few new ones.
Today I feel like I might be able to write. Normally I get that lightening-just-struck feeling of "I need to write, right this second!" and I haven't had that in a while.
Now, that's not to say I haven't been thinking about my book. I don't actually think there has been a day that I haven't thought about it, but it's been in weird ways. Instead of me playing out new scenes in my head, or planning for something coming up, it's just little flashes of my characters.
For instance, a few times I've seen something or someone on TV that has reminded me of some of my characters. Sort of like seeing someone that reminds you of an old friend, which I think in all reality might be a good sign. The characters are still alive and well in my head and I still find them and the story really interesting. I just can't seem to write it!
On a brighter note though, it was sort of nice looking at my story with fresh eyes in the past few days. I've always heard it's good to put your story up for a while and then look at it again and see what you like and don't like. And I had a few of those moments yesterday, so maybe this little block of mine will have a bright side. I just hope that the bright side includes finishing it soon.
So, I'm on a search for lost creativity. I'll keep you all updated.
Have a great day.
What I'm Listening To Right Now: Emeril on Food Network
Well, obviously I haven't posted in a while and that has mainly been out of frustration. I've hit a wall with my writing that I don't understand. I don't think it's writer's block since I already know what's going to happen in my story. Unless Writer's Block is defined a different way. Something like "Cannot find a creative bone in body, thus no writing." Then, I might have Writer's Block.
I just haven't been able to force myself to sit down and write. I've talked to a few people who think it's because I'm so near that end of my book that subconsciously, I've stopped myself from writing because I'm scared of what could happen after that; good or bad. And they may be right, but it still makes me mad!
I want to finish this book so bad I can't see straight, and yet here I am blogging; not writing.
I've taken some steps recently to try to get my head back in the story though. Things like sitting my pile of notebooks on my lap and staring at them. Hoping that just seeing the notes that I've made over the last nine months will spur some creativity. Yesterday was the first time in almost three weeks where I got a rumbling of creativity by looking at my notes. I even made a few new ones.
Today I feel like I might be able to write. Normally I get that lightening-just-struck feeling of "I need to write, right this second!" and I haven't had that in a while.
Now, that's not to say I haven't been thinking about my book. I don't actually think there has been a day that I haven't thought about it, but it's been in weird ways. Instead of me playing out new scenes in my head, or planning for something coming up, it's just little flashes of my characters.
For instance, a few times I've seen something or someone on TV that has reminded me of some of my characters. Sort of like seeing someone that reminds you of an old friend, which I think in all reality might be a good sign. The characters are still alive and well in my head and I still find them and the story really interesting. I just can't seem to write it!
On a brighter note though, it was sort of nice looking at my story with fresh eyes in the past few days. I've always heard it's good to put your story up for a while and then look at it again and see what you like and don't like. And I had a few of those moments yesterday, so maybe this little block of mine will have a bright side. I just hope that the bright side includes finishing it soon.
So, I'm on a search for lost creativity. I'll keep you all updated.
Have a great day.