I just did that...
Mood: Good but still anxious
What I'm Listening to Right Now: Red Sox v. Yankees on TV
So, Thursday at around 8 o'clock at night, I sent in my comment query to the agent I mentioned in my previous post. It's the first time I've queried an agent at all, and it was a big moment for me. I think I'm actually feeling what I thought I'd feel when I finished both of my books. That whole, "Holy crap, I just did that," feeling.
I mean, not only have I written two books, one which after last night is completely complete and one that still needs major changes, but now I'm actually looking for agents. Okay, well one agent at the moment. After I hear from her, I'll look into what I need to do. I just want to get this first one out of the way and see how I handle whatever comes at me.
If she likes it and wants to see more, awesome! That's what I've wanted. If not, I know that I need to work on my query and send it out to the other agents that I've researched. Deep breath.
I'm really preparing myself for rejection. Not because I'm expecting it but because I know that's what I'll have a problem handling. I'm not good with rejection, never have been, so I know I need to be prepared.
But I'll share something with you right now that I haven't told a single soul: I'm proud of myself.
I'm not the kind of person that pats herself on the back. I'm actually the polar opposite. Many people in my life get on me about being too hard on myself, so the fact that I just typed that I'm proud of myself is kind of a breakthrough.
I just feel like, not only have a written a book, (two, actually) but I'm putting myself out there. Good or bad, I'm doing what I've always wanted to do. I'm putting my ego on the line for my dreams. That's huge. And now I have a huge amount of respect for people who've been doing this for years, whether it's actors, writers, artists or anyone that has put so much time/care/love/heartache/feeling/energy into something and then just puts it out to the universe and yells, "Judge me!"
It's a big deal. And I, my friends, just did that.
Anyway, the agent posted that she should be getting back to everyone who queried by Tuesday, (deep breath) so I'll know either way by then, and I'll definitely post here when I know something.
Fingers crossed.
-B
What I'm Listening to Right Now: Red Sox v. Yankees on TV
So, Thursday at around 8 o'clock at night, I sent in my comment query to the agent I mentioned in my previous post. It's the first time I've queried an agent at all, and it was a big moment for me. I think I'm actually feeling what I thought I'd feel when I finished both of my books. That whole, "Holy crap, I just did that," feeling.
I mean, not only have I written two books, one which after last night is completely complete and one that still needs major changes, but now I'm actually looking for agents. Okay, well one agent at the moment. After I hear from her, I'll look into what I need to do. I just want to get this first one out of the way and see how I handle whatever comes at me.
If she likes it and wants to see more, awesome! That's what I've wanted. If not, I know that I need to work on my query and send it out to the other agents that I've researched. Deep breath.
I'm really preparing myself for rejection. Not because I'm expecting it but because I know that's what I'll have a problem handling. I'm not good with rejection, never have been, so I know I need to be prepared.
But I'll share something with you right now that I haven't told a single soul: I'm proud of myself.
I'm not the kind of person that pats herself on the back. I'm actually the polar opposite. Many people in my life get on me about being too hard on myself, so the fact that I just typed that I'm proud of myself is kind of a breakthrough.
I just feel like, not only have a written a book, (two, actually) but I'm putting myself out there. Good or bad, I'm doing what I've always wanted to do. I'm putting my ego on the line for my dreams. That's huge. And now I have a huge amount of respect for people who've been doing this for years, whether it's actors, writers, artists or anyone that has put so much time/care/love/heartache/feeling/energy into something and then just puts it out to the universe and yells, "Judge me!"
It's a big deal. And I, my friends, just did that.
Anyway, the agent posted that she should be getting back to everyone who queried by Tuesday, (deep breath) so I'll know either way by then, and I'll definitely post here when I know something.
Fingers crossed.
-B
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